A Difficult Night

Posted 07/05/2024
By Rusty Ferguson

I think Jessie woke me up a little when she came to bed. I remember a little bit awake and a little pain. Later, I woke up a little more to some kind of construction going on around my home on 948 Winn St. in South Jackson, Ms. That is where i lived from about 11 to 19 years old. I guess that is home in my subconscious. 

Later, I woke a bit more with machinery making noise and cutting the home across the street in half.   It had broken free and was rolling toward them. More chaos, more destruction but also building. The building is causing damage. ;) 

The last episode in my dream saw me trying to save others again. Often, I am the leader in some kind of way to save or protect others. Often, I'm the hero but I rarely see the results of my efforts, only the need to save. 

This time I heard a rumble and looked out the window. There was a massive tornado behind our home and it was moving toward Dorgan Street.  It looked like at least an F4 or that's what I decided in my dream. There was a closet in my home on Winn Street near the front door. Since that was the location farthest from the tornado's path, I moved us there.  We were in the closet and could feel the earth shaking. That's when I woke up. 

I'm not clear on who "us" was. It was a woman or girl and I tend to think it was Jessie but probably my subconscious needed to save someone. I don't think who was important as who it was is unclear. I'm not sure it was not my sister. Since she grew up with me there. We are estranged, she hates me from what little I know. But, she needs to be saved from herself and her mental issues. It's sad, as I consider it too dangerous to reach out to her. She's delusional. There is nothing I can do to help her. I am willing. I don't think it is a good idea.

 I woke up in more pain than usual. My lower back was hurting. I recall moaning in my half-sleep, looking at the clock, and was relieved that it was time to wake up. I didn't get up though. I drifted back to sleep but in two minutes my alarm went off, it was 11:30 am.

I am okay today but my emotional state is still fragile. It does not take much to send me back into a depressed state.  Still, that is an improvement.